tabah

assalamualaikum uuolssss.. 

fuhh.. busy much.. busy ngn apa pon tak tahu la.. haha.. study?.. err, not the best answer perhaps.. I just wasting my time think bout lot of things which I shouldnt.. demmm... how bad I am to be like this.. all my precious weeks just burn like, just flew away like, nobody can save it.. huaaa.. i want my previous weeks back.. though i know, i cant do nothing.. masyaAllah

wake up from your day dreaming nabil .. again, focus on what you should.. you have to be strong nabil.. you have to for your own good.. just find something , or just do anything, which can make you calm, can comfort you, make your life interesting ... go, find something .. stop chasing .. stop looking ... stop thinking .. stop wondering.. stop everything which kinda related.. stop... you can do it.. why not now?.. you used to be strong before.. you used to manage facing all of this things.. you can right, remember??.. 

dear myself, life is aint going to be easy if you just stand with all the memories.. step ahead.. stop looking behind.. anybody waited for you?.. no right?.. so, just walk.. walk away.. walk to somewhere which you deserve more to be.. does it hard?.. make a step.. gait walking cycle : stance, swing.. make your stance, then just swing.. taraaa.. you manage to walk away.. why dont u start now, before it's going to be late????

I've to do this.. I've to wake up.. I've to forget.. I've to be strong.. I've to do everything.. everything.. CHANGE it nabil.. change your own thoughts.. change.. 

much love, nabila

blur

assalamualaikum uollssss2 semua..

err, nusy and really a hectic week indeed !.. hmm.. xthu nk kp cmne da.. just follow the flow.. org tarik, aku ikot je bt masa skng.. xthu nk ckp cmne.. tak tahu nk describe cmne.. tak tahu aku rasa apa.. u know what, I'm kinda BLUR !!!! 

blur of everything... confuse about everything.. ya Allah, Kau permudahkanlah urusan hambaMu ini dalam mencapai cita-citaku ya Allah.. aminnn.. 

three test for tomorrow :

1. online mandarin quiz

2. peads condition on two topics spina bifida and cerebral palsy

3. community based rehabilitation

preparation???.. not fully prepared.. 

reason???... feelingless... main causes?.. undefined ... why?... couldnt describe it in words when it comes to FEELING !

thinking on to deactivate my facebook acc after OT Day.. insyaAllah , will make it.. will consider it btw.. and big applause to me coz I've already deactivated my twitter acc... it's just, just toooo mainstream.. hope it will long lasting... focus ! focus !

much love, nabila

confuse

assalamualaikum...

confuse on something??.. should I??.. can I??.. oh Allah.. I just need to move on maybe.. right, move on.. how I wish I can.. 

presentation

assalamualaikum....

 I'm just feel like, well, nabila, u really did a good job.. wake up from ur day dreaming then.. congratsss nabil!!.. (bagi semangat utk diri sendiri).. hehehe..

okay, for the time being, am just struggling myself to do slides presentation entitled 'dysphagia management' ... at first, even me myself, ohmaiii, what am going to do with those who has problems in swallowing, i meann yaa, the stages of swallowing.. I'm as therapist, what I have to do??.. what ix can I applied??.. rupa-rupanya banyak la uolsss yg i boley tlg.. hihihi.. tu la nabil.. give up hari first lg.. ishhh2.. shud not be like this in da future..

i'm still doing revision on this topic.. kinda tough as for me, coz, I dont know apa yg Mr J nak for this presentation.. nvm sir, I'll do my best.. hehe.. tak sabar nk jumpa sir isnin ni.. lot of questions I wanna ask youuu.. hehe.. betol la ape yg sir ckp.. library shud be your second home.. confirm and aku setuju sebula-bulatnya kena bt cmtu lpas naik midterm ni.. akan buat.. ohh library.. ohh bilik bacaan.. hihihi.. hoii nabil, xyh nk gedik sgt.. haha.. buat tu, jgn ckp je lebih.. haha

okay, sambung buat slides balik.. ya Allah, moga dipermudahkan.. aminnn

individual presentation for med neuro intervention on dysphagia management.. bismillahirrahmanirrahim

much love, nabila

perasaan

assalamualaikum......

sebenarnya................

tipu kalau aku tak rasa pape
tipu kalau aku tak risau langsung
tipu kalau aku tak bimbang
tipu kalau aku tak fikir akannya

tipu kalau aku tak cemburu
tipu kalau aku tak rindu
tipu kalau aku tak sayang
tipu kalau aku 'hey, i'm fine...i'm okay'

am trying to change.. am trying to put it aside for a moment.. am trying to not  think bout it.. am trying enough.. am trying..

hati budi

assalamualaikum

hye uolssss semua.. buat ape tuh?.. doing ur revision?.. krik krik.. untunglaa semua2 ni rajin belaka.. me??.. haha.. tgk citer ngn my umi.. and now, just baru masuk dlm bilik hadap laptop ni haa.. haha.. update jp then. proceed ngn balik kejap..

okay, utk malam ni :

sesi luahan perasaan??

sesi mengenal hati budi??

sesi jujur akan sesuatu??

sesi mendengar pengalaman orang??

sesi memantapkan bahasa Inggeris?? .. hahaha.. pon boley.. sbb weollssss text guna BI u... haha.. susah nk explain klw guna BM.. mcm jiwang je bunyi.. 

okay, pokoknya, semua bergabung menjadi satu .. ehh, jiwang karat betol.. haha. actually, malam ni , yess, sedikit sebanyak membantu meleraikan jiwa yang kacau gundah gulana ni.. haha.. mohon takde sape baca ayat aku ni.. masyaAllah sejak bila pandai berpuitis ni nabil.. *hantuk kepala kt dinding ... haha

okay, mohon kepada insan yang sepatutnya tu, tolong jangan gelak baca entry ni.. even, aku thu ayat ni agak, errrr, annoying sikit kot.. haha.. yg penting, i know the truth.. haha.. tu yg penting..okay, enough of membebel.. adoo nabila, dah ko ni nape asyik menguap je?.. hahaha.. okay, masuk tido.. buku letak tepi dulu.. haha

much love, nabila

kesedaran

assalamualaikum uolssss2 semua..

okay, now, kat sini mendung je, cm nk hujan je ni haa.. eh tetibe nk jd penyampai cuaca plak... krik krik.. haha.. okay, for today nothing special sgt la kot.. just do some facial treatment then, balik rumah baca CBR.. jeles tgk org lain dah study bnyk for this Monday's test, while me, naaaa, goyang kaki since balik haritu lg.. haha.. ape nak jd ni nabil..btw, saja je nk bgthu, now listening to Hanya Aku by Hyper Act... haha.. tetiba mood ke laut sikit harini

somehow, I'm still looking for something.. something which I couldnt describe it in words.. something which really hard to express.. coz I know that, I'm losing something.. oh Allah, am I forgetting something which is important?.. am I missing something which should be my prioritze instead of others??.. frankly, all of them left unanswered. I dont know what's going on with me.. what's wrong with you nabil????????.. something keep on playing in your head, right, but, u just hard to slip out it from your mouth.. EXPRESS it nabil.. express.. or otherwise, you'll be suffer for a long time.. 

honestly, I just like want to scream out as loud as I can.. I want to scream just to express this.. it hurts inside.. sakittt... but the point now is, I dont know the main reason why I'm behaving like this??.. are you overthinking about something nabil??.. 

dear myself, stop thinking things that you shouldnt.. just focus on things that you should pay ur full attention.. please nabil.. wake up from your day dreaming.. wake up.. am just begging, pliss.. u've to change for ur own good.. remember ur dreams right?.. are you???.. okay, this will take time, seriously, it is, but, pliss nabil.. just dont give up.. look, u have another 9 weeks before your final exam.. do your best, can you??.. strive for it, can you??.. change, can you??

dear mrkrab, I'm asking for nothing actually... Always praying for you health, wishing you all the best in whatever things you do.. hey, you can do it.. what can I say is, goodluck... be happy of who you are.. you know what, yess, you really did a good job... sincerely, me.. :)

okay then.. proceed with things which is more important.. 

much love, nabila

perlu ke?

assalamualaikum

okay, hati tak tenteram .. jiwa kacau.. ohmaiii, apa dah jadi ngn aku ni?.. nape jiwa kacau sgt nih?.. ya Allah...

sdeyhh thu tak cmni.. honestly, spoil mood aku nk stay up siapkan mana yg patut.. ya Allah

perlu ke buat cmtu?. perlu ke?.. ko dah tahu, ko buat jugak kn. hadoiii... tak psl2, aku naik angin malam ni.. ya Allah.. udah2 la bt cmtu.. udah2 la.. 

again : meroyan malam2.. sdeyhhnyaaa hidup aku..

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blabbering

assalamualaikum

mood : am reading slides notes and notes on cerebral palsy..  wondering right?.. hey, you are studying, then, how did you end up updating?.. haha.. chillex pliss ladies and gentlemen.. no one can stand just study for the whole time, am I right?.. if not, I'm just going to do the saccadic eye movement while reading the notes.. haha.. so, there's no point of it, right?.. so, I choose to update something here.. am just doing some revision on Cerebral palsy.. honestly, too many things to understand.. well, basically, u wont get enough understanding just by depends on theory, what you need is a patient.. nvm, nabil, pahamkan betol2 dulu.. then, jumpe patient kang, insyaAllah u can do it.. 

somehow, am wondering, tyme class madam paham plak apa yg dia ajar, tp, bila nak study balik, eh, ape mksud ni, ape benda ni.. mcm penah dgr, tp, ingat-ingat lupa.. ya Allah.. rasanya lpas ni, finish one chapter, then, teros kena bt mind map kot.. the point is, now, baru aku rasa subjek sem ni betol2 tough.. hehehe.. 

anyone plis, bagi satu lagu yg boley membakar semangat aku ni?.. hehe..

#nowlistening the climb

okay, dah2.. sambung balik.. hbiskan CP sikit lagi, then proceed with spina bifida.. jyeahhh

much love, nabila

Happy Eid Adha

assalamualaikum ....

so, wassup?.. long tyme no update here.. tho' I've toooo many stories to share with uguss.. okay, but, before that, whether we realize or not. tomorrow we, all Muslims will celebrate Eid Adha.. oh Allah, seriously, time flies too fast and wait for nobody.. in fact, we as the human being, should run after the time..

so, here I am in kelantan.. well, normally people will say that, Eid Adha is not so merrier compared to Eid Fitri.. but, in Kelantan, we do celebrating it like Eid Fitri.. nothing less i think.. gathering as the whole family, yeahhh, it's such a happy moment u knoee..

okay nabila, raya is memang la raya, but, dont u ever wish to run from doing your works.. haha.. here are the list to do things.. u better remember this, if not, u gonna be a dead meat for sure next week.. haha.. 

1. slide presentations on Dyspagic Management for Med Neuro Intervention... individual presentation u knoee.. oh my, seriously, for the time being, rama -rama is dalam perut sy.. haha

2. editing some slides on Kinesiology.. mr kannan said that, our slides is good but, yess, need to do some touch up for our own goods

3. grup presentations on Movement Disorder for Peads Condition. am not quite sure when the presentation will be as our grup suppose to be the fourth one.. well, still have quite a long time to prepare for it.. haha.. look, I'm just planning to put it on the back burner.. nabil!!.. you better change ur attitude.. stop from being a procrastinator

4. test on Peads Condition on 25th Oct which will cover two topics, Spasticity and Spina Bifida

5. Mandarin quiz on 25th Oct, which will be online quize 

6. medical neuro condition grup presentation on the 10th week : Muscular Dystrophy

7. naahhh, I;m almost forget something important.. CBR test on this monday.. omomomo.. community based rehab.. and yess, am not quite sure what I'm gonna read for this test.. haha.. 

okay, I guess enough of blabbering.. till then, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha.. mind to watch your meals... avoid from get hypertension in da future.. krik krik..

mood : dapat free call, tunggu mrkrab balik main futsal.. ingat nak kol, tp, never mind.. he must be tired much.. hehe.. btw, it is great enough coz he dont know my silly blog.. haha.. dear mrkrab, selamat hari raya.. 

much love, nabila