Redha with what Allah has decided to me before and after all of these. I know I cant be strong enough to face all of these. It's too hard for me. Too hard for me to accept all of these at first knowing what had happened before. I'm sacrificed a lot. Sacrificed till no other words can describe it.
I never fall in love with a guy too hard, never been too attached for a guy until I'm willing to do everything for him. Always for him through ups and downs no matter how many times I've been dumped by him. That same person whom I'm in love for almost four years.
What I need is all just explanations what is actually happening. I keep on waiting, waiting. I'm standing with his promises. but to be frankly, all his tells are no other than lies. It all bullshits. Bullshits like I'm the stupid ones who still believe and put too much trust on him.
And now I know, it's the end of everything. The end of everything. Hard enough to forgive and hard enough to forget. I'll let time decides what's gonna be happened next. I can't pray for the best of you, the man, that I really love.
seriously, I wont. .................................................................
