hectic weekend

assalamualaikum uollssss

pheeewww.. rasa cm da lama giler tak update belog.. iolsss busy sikit minggu ni.. muahaha.. dah la weekend lepas balik kelantan .. smpai sini, bnyk plak dugaan yg mendatang.. ya Allah.. alhamdulillah, semua dah settle.. okay, for this week, aku pergi conference on Special Educators as Learners and Leaders (SELL) Conference organized by Ministry of Education of Australia.. kinda great... absolutely benefit.. I do learnt a lot from this conference especially on how to handle autistic children.. alhamdulillah.. hoping for I can apply it to them in the future.. insyaAllah.. okay, here's some of the pics .. some of us menggila tyme conference.. haha

okay.. conference tu 4 hari okay.. isni smpai khmis yg lepas.. penat tapi bnyk benda yg aku belajar from this congress.. :)))

okay.. jumaat c biase ade clas mandarin.. then, 10.30-12.30 clas med neuro condition.. and then petan tu plak class peads condition.. ya Allah packnya jadual.. 

suppose nk tgk tunger game malam tu, tp, memandangkan lambat smpai mall so, we end up beli burger abg burn.. then, teros balik palam.. omomo.. honestly, such a sad life.. haha

harini plak, clas bpc strt pkl 9 smpai 2.. haha.. half day with hbu's class.. haha.. petang cm biase, lepak umah je lerr. tak larat bak hangg.. and then, guess what petang td, aku jmpe kawan tyme sekolah menengah.. seriously lama giler tak jmpe.. last jmpe form 3 kot.. haha.. walaupon dk satu bandar, seriously, mmg tak penah jmpe.. haha.. lepak kejap minum air then bawak dia jalan2 pusing palam of course.. haha.. tq sebab drive.. u knoee what, I'm kinda lazy to drive.. haha.. and maybe skng dia otw balik gombak dah kot.. kot laaa.. rindu nak jmpe cg mariah.. lama oii tak jmpe.. hehe..

okay dah.. habiskan slide presentation aku.. haha.. bubyeeee

much love, nabila

pack

assalamualaikum 

okay, just drop by here for a little while before proceed with my presentation's slide.. too many too cover.. and yess, the final examination is just around the corner

this week , I'm gonna attend a conference which held in Petaling Jaya for 4 days with ze coursemates... well, the best part is, we need to drive there.. haha.. and then on friday, there'll be mandarin test and insyaAllah presentation on movement disorder.. oh Allah.. and for saturday, we got bpc's class.. omomomo.. fully packed.. sunday?.. for sure am gonna prepare for my presentation..

okay, nothng can be said anymore.. just praying for my best.. aminnnn.. insyaAllah I'll do my best

p/s : being hurt, being neglected by someone whom we adore much, are just likeee really pissed me off.. honestly.. and yess, I'm really meant it.. for now, i dont care ! 

much love, nabila

Rindu

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p.s I miss you.. 

homesick

assalamualaikum... 

okay, the good news is again kinesiology test is postpone!! haha.. me like eerr, happy of course.. how come tak happy kalau test cancel coz kita tau we still not fully prepare for it.. ecehh.. haha..

okay, another good new is, malam esok balik kelantan !!! you know what, homesick yg amat da ni.. rinduu umah.. rindu abah.. rindu umi.. rindu adik2.. rindu!! ya Allah, aku harap dengan kepulangan aku ni, dpt menanamkan balik semangat aku yg telah hilang di bwak dek angin mana entah.. still unknown.. haha.. minggu ni je aku free. minggu depan and akan dtg mcm hectic je.. balik nabil.. gain again your strength ! 

may Allah ease my journey.. may Allah make me strong.. aminnnn

#esok ade test med neuro condition.. insyaAllah jd.. classmate ckp, objektif ngn true false je.. hihi.. bubyee uolsss.. 

much love, nabila

we can

assalamualaikum...

minggu ni??.. suppose to have :

1. individual presentation on dysphagia management today (tuesday) but papa J call it offf as he need to attend a meeting if I'm not mistaken . it was postpone for the second time.. and yes, insyaAllah will make it again on next Tues.. wish me all the best.. 

2. on weds, there'll be group presentation about ankle and foot which is under kinesiology.. and the good news is, there'll also be a TEST !!! haha.. and I;m not prepared for it at all..

3. on thurs, there'll be again at a TEST on medical neuro conditions which will cover basically 5 conditions..

hectic arh?.. it's suppose not to be the hectic one, but I'm the one who chose it.. hihi.. so, serve you right.. tai nabil, why not you strive for it first?.. believe in yourself that you can do it okay.. go nabil.. gambate ! 

dear you, good luck in finishing your report.. good luck for your upcoming test.. knowing that this message wont affecting you at all, but, still, i wanna wish it.. sincerely from nobody.. :)))

much love, nabila

pieces

HEART

LOVE

PIECES

FRAGMENTS

NOTHING

ZERO

NEWBIE

life cycle.. love cycle.. hard to accept.. hard to adapt.. but, this is the truth.. this is the reality.  i jst cant bare this anymore..

die inside.. speechless inside.. heartbroken inside.. fake smile.. everything's fake.. people may choose whatever they want in their life.. either a good one or not.. want it or not, we've to take it.. accept whatever the decision is.. in some stage, i think that i;m going to explode soon... this kind of problem kinda burden me.. it shouldnt be this worsen btw.. but, now, it happen.. dying inside.. hurting inside.. blur inside.. 

conflict

assalamualaikum...

conflict??

confuse??

speechless??

over thinking??

feel like wanna give up??

feel like wanna throw your phone??

feel like wanna hit somebody??

feel like wanna cry??

feel like wanna die????

feel like wana jump from high??

feel like wanna give a punch??

OTHER SIDE

do they think like how I think??

do they worried like how I feel??

do they take it seriously or just play around??

do they toying my feelings ??

do they appreciate me like how I do??

do they care ??

do  theyyy????... do they care about me????.. do they???..

again heartbroken into pieces.. again I feel like wanna explode... again it happen.. again it hurting me.. again it make me stress.. again I'm thinking over it which I found there's no ending at all.. again and again.. could we just put all of this into an end??.. I;m begging.. just stop.. just quit..

much love, nabila

stress + boring

assalamualaikum uolsss

Salam maal Hijrah again.. hihi.. okay, for today, eventho' it;s public holiday weolss xklua mana2 pon.. just hangout kat umah.. study utk test esok and aku tmbah lg 2 keje. haha.. slide presentation and report program.. well, it's my fault.. sbb suka sgt put something on the back burner.. demmm.. haha.. okay, tak nak ckp banyak.. memandangkan aku seteresss sikit sbb bnyk sgt benda yg aku add-up utk individual presentation.. cuak + takut + ... semua ada oii..

okay due to kesetressan yang melampau, ini la yg jadi .. haha.. the real me.. 

#tracksuit #jersey #plaingreybawal

wish me luck .. wish me all the best.. give me support.. give me strength .. aminnn

much love, nabila

alhamdulillah

assalamualaikum

btw, before aku melalut entah ke mana selamat menyambut maal hijrah semua ! .. moga2, tahun baru ni membawa seribu makna dan tahun lepas dijadikan pengajaran untuk menghadapi hari-hari yang mendatang.. pesanan untuk diri sendiri jugak... aminnn.. 

okay, sebenarnya harini ada praktikal test utk medical and neurological assessment.. alhamdulillah sgt, aku dpt soklan yg quite familiar.. yg aku sllu prktis dlm lab.. alhamdulillah.. sumpah semalam lot of things came to haunt me.. masyaAllah, I'm relieve that everything has been done.. LOTCA will forever be in my mind.. hihi.. thanks papa J, thanks madam, thanks cik Miza.. uihhh.. bajet mcm dpt full mark je.. gila tak cuak.. kalau aku kena bt range of motion and manual muscle testing, mahuu tak nangis.. hehehe.. 

it's just like, err, alhamdulillah.. ya Allah, moga Kau permudahkan perjalanan hidupku untuk menghadapi hari2 yang mendatang.. aminnn ..

okay, for tonight:

1. siapkan sikit lagi report program.. hihi.. dah bnyk x aku tangguh.. ishh

2. siapkan slide presentation on dysphagia management.. rabu nk tunjuk kt papaJ

3. kemaskan fail S/U

4. study untuk test kinesiology on Weds

mampukah aku?.. bolehkan aku?.. yess, you can nabil.. 

bismillahirrahmanirrahim ......

much love, nabila

today

assalamualaikum uuolsss

fuhhh.. fuhh.. lega sikit sbb ptg2 bley lepak kat umah je.. dah lama dah aku tak rasa rilek cenggini.. hihi.. bt apa sebelom ni?.. haaa, tu pon aku tak sure.. masa berlalu dengan pantasnya.. sangat !.. 

pejam celik pejam celikdah minggu ke-7 oiii.. another 7 weeks for final exam.. ready kah aku?.. cukup tak ilmu yg sebelom ni?.. praktik tak aku?.. mampukah aku?.. ya Allah, rasanya aku kena berusaha lagi.. bila nka start ni nabil?.. takkan la mnggu 13 bru nak start?.. mohon berubah nabil.. rajinkan diri anda..

okay, for today.. nothing special.. just ade clas bpc strtpkl 9-2.30ptg.. haha.. giler betol.. sumpah lapargiler tyme tu.. Tuhan je la yg tahu.. tapi, bkn salah miss tu pon.. yg aku cari psl tk mkn pagi tu nape.. haha.. padan muka ko nabil ! .. tapi, tyme2 lapar tu, ade la jgk something yg menenangkan aku mybe.. i received a text ! i told u arr.. a simple text from him can simply make me smile.. seriously.. it doesnt matter what the content is, but, yess, whenever i saw his name in my hp screen, ohmaiii, he texts me.. he did... 

haha.. perasaan tyme tu, hard to describe.. cukup menenangkan to know that he's okay, he's fine.. nothing more I request.. just taht.. stay happy.. stay cool.. stay fit.. 

okay, rasanya dah boley start stdy da.. lusa i got a practical test uoolsss.. uihh, debar makk.. 

much love, nabila

I'm done

assalamualaikum uoolsss

hehe, so wassup?.. enjoy your weekend night?.. err, same goes with me.. well, nothing special for today.. finish class on 12.45pm, then, lepak ngn member2 kt macD while waiting for evening class.. tapi, we text papa J, to cancel off the class.. hehe.. me is kindaa lazy... krik krik 

then, her I am drove to keyelll just sebab nak cari buku.. tp, tup tup buku yg nak cari out of stock plak.. hihi.. takde rezeki gamaknye.. tapi takpe, sbb da book ngn dealer tu.. hihi.. mohon calll i ye, klw buku tu da ade..

otw nak balik palm, mg cnperm2 la aku kena hadap jam bagai.. ohmaiiii, xmbohh jd org keyell.. jd org kelate sudah.. haha.. xsnggup nk hadap jem oii.. bukan taste aku.. haha.. bnyk kenangan ngn syafiq, ze housemate tyme p kl.. yg paling kelakar is kejadian kat tol.. hahahaha... sumpah aku gelak je ngn dia.. so maluu youu know.. malu.. haha.. 

okay, now nk masuk topic utk hari ni.. hehe.. dah cukup membebel..

I'm done

I'm done trying

I'm done fighting

I'm done thinking

I'm done hoping

I'm done looking

I'm done searching

I'm done sacrificing

I'm done wasting

I'm done

It's gone

Finish

Full stop

hehe.. let's do it nabil.. strive for your future ! .. you can do it la bebeh.. I know u well.. hihihi..

much love, nabila