Redha

Redha with what Allah has decided to me before and after all of these. I know I cant be strong enough to face all of these. It's too hard for me. Too hard for me to accept all of these at first knowing what had happened before. I'm sacrificed a lot. Sacrificed till no other words can describe it. 

I never fall in love with a guy too hard, never been too attached for a guy until I'm willing to do everything for him. Always for him through ups and downs no matter how many times I've been dumped by him. That same person whom I'm in love for almost four years.

What I need is all just explanations what is actually happening. I keep on waiting, waiting. I'm standing with his promises. but to be frankly, all his tells are no other than lies. It all bullshits. Bullshits like I'm the stupid ones who still believe and put too much trust on him. 

And now I know, it's the end of everything. The end of everything. Hard enough to forgive and hard enough to forget. I'll let time decides what's gonna be happened next. I can't pray for the best of you, the man, that I really love.

seriously, I wont. ................................................................. 

Road to graduation

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, I'm done with my degree study yg 8 semester tu in 4 years. alhamdulillah, syukur sgt sbb dpt habiskan degree no matter what though the situations are. alhamdulillah ya Allah. Final result pon dh klua. This is for you umi abah.  dh bleh road to graduation dh .. yehaaa.. grad tak grad, keje tetap kena cari .. tapi, masalah aku yg paling besar is susah nk jauh ngn umi abah . homesick we can call it .. lol.. ape nak jadi la ngn nabila ni. umur 23 dh pdhal..


Habis degree, means habis la intern yg setahun tuuu .. Tq to therapists yg byk bg tunjuk ajar and knowledge. yg paling penting sekali experience on how to deal with patients .. and yes, thanks a lot to practical mates yg sanggup hadap up and down sme2.

throughout my fourth year tu la, I'm going back and forth from Kelantan-Palam haha semata2 demi fyp ku tersayang. tq sgt kt fyp-mate aku yg sanggup turn naik palam sama2. sama2 pening nk siapkan thesis, nk anaylze data ler ape la.

end of degree life .. let's work bebeh . work for a bright future,,, harap2 la cari kerja ni tak sesusah nk cari jodoh hahaha ..

present pon dh . buku thesis pn dh . result pn dh klua. let's get a job the bebehhhh

Kalau aku cakap aku rindu?

I don't know hat I feel

I don't understand this feeling

can someone just wake me up, told me that I'm dreaming?

I just could not accept this things happen to me 

This is too much

Can someone understand what I felt?

Can someone told me that it's okay for me to cry? . It's okay for me to scream?

Dear you,

I really miss you till up to a point that I couldn't describe it in any single word. 

It's too painful 

It's really challenged me

I tried to be strong everyday , every single seconds, every single minutes, every single hours

Would you just spare me some time please? . I really need to talk to you

It has been several days without jokes, without 'hi, what u doing?' 'why not we go on date?come over here' . 

I really miss you.

I can't lie . I can't

Tears keep on falling into my cheeks

I hate myself for missing you so much

I'm sorry

oh Allah, I seek for your strength , If someday, if we are destinied to be together in teh future, and he;s the one who hold my hand into Jannah, take a good care of him before both of us are ready to that responsibility .

 

Clinical placement

last post is on 23rd July ... harini dah 6th December . how times flies so fast ..

okay, this is my 7th semester in Bachelor of Occupational Therapy. so, our final year will be like , CLINICAL POSTING ... it's for real babe .. for two semester, we wont enter the examination hall anymore, no more tests, no more lectures, no more assignments. too long, aite? .. hahaha.. (course aku unik tapi menarik)

CLINICAL POSTING in 4 main areas:

1. orthopedic and surgical

2. medical neurological

3. psychiatrics

4. pediatrics

so, all of the four areas will be in Hospital Universiti Sains Malaysia, Kubang Kerian. yeahhhhh, after 4 years, now, I'm back. to my hometown yehaaa..

okay, so far, I've finished my posting in orthopedic and surgical .. alhamdulillah. currently now posting in medical neurology. May Allah ease everything. but, not to forget that, at the end of this month, apparently either on 21st or 22nd Dec, there will be viva Viva is where our lecturer will come over to our clinical placement to observe and to give marks based on how we treat patient. but, to be honest is we ourselves dont know what type of condition that we will get . hahaha .. so, it means that we have to cover each condition and know details about the condition, especially the pathophysiology and signs and symptoms. yehaaa .. and i got another 2 weeks left to do so. krik3..

hm, I think I shud start by now kot .too closer , is it? .. dgn case presentation is on next week, 14th Dec. but, still slide xsiap lagi .. kikiki .. 

okay, that's all .. next posting wilL be on, SOMEONE ..

makin busy, makin GEMUK . orang lain makin kurus. dieee. haha 

move on

I've clear out everything . I guess this is the point that remarks the ending of my nonsense feelings, attitudes towards him. whenever think of it over and over again, wth did I like him before? .. hahaha .. well, it proves that love is blind . no matter how worse he is, no matter what he did to you, ignore you, you still have a positive thinking of him .. LOVE IS BLIND !!!!! hahaha .. INDEED

okay, now I can MOVE ON .. move on from you .. hihihi .. i dont lost anything ... okay, now, it is the time to focus on important things... 

1. 4TH MAPOTSCORE on this 23-26th August ... one month from now ...

2. Final year project - i dun even have the title yet . haha .. too much holidayssss

3. preparation for clinical placement for orthopedics and medical neurology area starting on this 6th Sept ... huaaaa, imma not readyyyy ,..

suka

how can I tell you?

in what way should I start?

or

should I just forget it?

kadang-kadang tipu aku cakap klw aku xpernah pikir bukan2 pasal kau . but i dun know why . the moment imma to forget semua psal kau, makin kuat pulak aku ingat .. haihhh 

peik ngn diri sendiri sebab smpai skrg aku ingt satu2 pasal kau.

kau buat la pape yg boley bt aku sdeyh pape, but, at the end, aku okay balik .. i mean dgn sendirinya 

ohmaiii, nabila shud stop behave like thissss 

tapi, makin aku cuba makin kuat

this life arrrr sooo dasyat .. i mean in this thing only .. huaaaaaaaaa

xoxo

penpurplepenbiru

dinner view

assalamualaikum ..... 

here we come to our 12th week of our semester 6 .. how fast time flies, doesnt it? .. hmm.. how i wish i can start afresh, without having so much of stress like how third year study? .. haha.. so that, i can prepare my mental and physical well.. kikiki .. third year out of four year, doesnt it shows that I can survive enough despite of too many works?? .. wat lek wat peace wat cool .. sebab still lagi xde tajuk FYP, and supervisor.. hahaha .. da minggu 12 ni babe .. tiggal 2 minggu je lagi .. then, bye2 la third year .. here we go tour forth year .. uihh, yg tu cuak banyak sbb 2 sem praktikal kt HUSM. insyaAllah .. yg penting balik kampong, hooorayyyyy .. udah2 la ter merantau kt Palam ni .. haha .. dah 4 tahun da duk sini .. since umur 18 tahun .. uihhh, mudanya .. skang dh tua .. haha

tapi, sedar tak sedar jugak lepas ni susah nk jumpa classmate aku yg awesome2 ni .. yg ade 27 ketul ni .. haaaa.. last2 ni bru nk klua lepak klua makan sesama .. huaaaa .. i is sad ... lepas ni susah nk jumpa.. masing2 praktikal kt tmpat2 lain .. yg penting, sep2 kelate kelik dumoh belako wehh .. haha . .. so, beberapa minggu yang tinggal ni, kteorg try nk capture sebanyak memori yang boleh .. huaaaa .. so, semalam 2 alza satu kancil, kteorg selamat p makan steamboat kt area shah alam .. haha .. selamat sampai walaupon time otw pegi balik tu bnyk benda terjadi .. hahahahaha

time pegi?????

aku pemandu cuai uturn kt lane yg same ... malu tak tahu nak taruk mana.. nasib xde kete je haaaaa.. klw tak, xthu nk bt ape .. co-pilot suh uturn, aku uturn je la .. hahaha ... #uturnisthebest ... uihh, bahaya betoiiii 

time balik???

check in INTEKMA, eh takk2 gurau .. haha .. papppp, something happen .. tapi, nasib xsemua nampak .. 

gelak tawa korang, gelagat korang, aku akan rindu nanti .. huaaa.. so, here;s the pics 

 

 

 

 

fuhhhh .. malam ni rilek semacam lain macam .. kbai